Melbourne

All of a sudden, Melbourne feels different.
It resembles home
it exudes familiarity
it envelopes me with warmth and comfort.

Trails of family and friends
who have come and gone.
Remnants of memories
tucked in between its nooks and crannies
all have constituted a life of mine
one I first begrudgingly built
in this city of no one I knew.

There are still tinges of fear remaining;
this comfort is feeble
this safety is frail
and I could be once again
left all alone in this city of five millions.

I find myself yearning to come back
but deep inside, my heart whispers
"this could just be a euphoria"
"all of this could just be a huge illusion
and once you find your way back
everything hasn't really changed"
I am scared.
I am scared to death.